So another few days have gone by with more arguing with my lawyer, and 2 bouts of Childrens Services in 2 different provinces. So much fun. I don't think phone tag has ever lasted this long for anyone. Either way it seems that Childrens services "misplaced" an important paper that said when my Court Date was so they aren't going to pay for it. Then in my province i'm residing in, they are saying "Well too bad." So now I have NO Bloody way to get to the trial date. And if anyone has ever skipped off of court, well you know well what happens. Seems that in July my mother is going to end up winning the case, and if she doesn't then it seems that the judge is on my side. Either way, I believe I am fucked. Then there is Evan. Everyone who even knows about me, knows that I'm madly in love with Evan. To the point where it could be considered obsession. I found a quote earlier saying "You never stop loving someone, You just try to learn to live without them." I don't think I've ever heard a quote that has rang as true as that. I've tried to stop loving Evan, and I can't. He's too amazing. And now I'm simply trying to just live without him, which is even harder. But what terrifies the fuck out of me is that he doesn't care about me anymore. I'm just nothing to him. Not a surprise. I love him, he knows it, and I text him but live on the other side of the country. I'd be growing less close to someone anyway. The past 3 days I've been nothing but depressed, and it's starting to affect my work and my lawyer. Either way, just an update.